Monday, September 17, 2012
A new direction
I really thought that my family was going back to FL. My husband and I both sought God by praying and felt He was leading us back to a place where we used to live -- a place we missed and longed for.
We have been here in Ohio for 4 years and have not really felt connected. Loneliness set in and that is not something I am used to. I was a new mom and felt alone. We prayed for friends here, trying to get involved and plugged in. It shouldn't have been hard. We grew up not far from here, but we felt like outsiders -- cliques run rampant here! So, we put our house on the market and it didn't sell. Right now, we are seeking God asking "what did we miss?" Why did God lead us and get our hopes up just to keep us here? I am hoping to learn a lesson.
I have experienced a lot of heartache and disappointment since moving from friends and places I love. I want to experience those connections again here in Ohio. Where God has placed us. What will God teach me from this?
I may never get answers. If God says it, faith says that should be enough. Maybe I will get answers later. Maybe He will take us where we want to go. Where is that? Where He wants us. God does have a plan. Maybe He wants bigger blessings here. I want to be a blessing here.
I have now discovered a MOPS group and a new book study that I can get involved in. We have also joined in a small group at our church since my son now has a little more flexibility in his schedule. Maybe this is where I can get connections. Maybe not. I am scared that hope will lead to heartache.
Why didn't God show me the mom's group earlier?
Please pray for connections for our family. My 2 year old needs friends and so do my husband and I.
Have you ever felt God threw you a curve ball? Did you find the blessings from the journey?
I am looking forward to this next chapter. I know I am expecting a lot, but God is great. Even through heartache.